Tough

haha I don't really act tough.

But I'm a guy, maybe I should? I don't know. I've never really found it necessary to act tough... I mean, asides from when I'm having a hard time with something. I mean, simply being tough, as if acting tough as part of who I was.

Since I was... young, I've always given into... almost everything. Always listening to what other people say, without disagreeing or stating my own beliefs. Or letting myself get put down too easily. haha letting myself get a bit bullied be girls (though I don't think that's a truly bad thing. I mean, in a way, being "bullied" has made things more interesting and fun haha).

But I'm glad to say, that I've become more tough. I've improved in a few other ways too I'm glad to say. I can stand up for myself. I don't get nervous easily anymore. You could say I have a better hold on myself. Like, when people say "get a hold of yourself!!!" Like that. ^^ I don't panic as much anymore, and I don't become overwhelmed too easily as well.

Being tough doesn't mean that you act like a jerk or act all gangsta. It doesn't mean that you curse or talk tough or say lewd or mean things. It doesn't mean that you dress a certain way, believe in certain things, or anything little like that. Being tough means so much more than that.

I guess it all comes down to confidence in the end. You have to believe in yourself. You have to support your beliefs, whatever they may be, and talk and act with confidence.

If you don't, you may feel that you're... shrinking. People can walk all over you, and you may end up beating yourself up over something just because you didn't have the guts to do or say anything. Of course, there are times that you may be wrong. Maybe the thing you thought was right, wasn't right at all. Maybe you were wrong to ever believe something. But you can't let a fear of being wrong keep you from having confidence in yourself. When you're wrong, you're wrong. No big deal. If you find out you were wrong about something, well, then you just learned a new thing. No one is perfect, and no one is always right. Or perhaps you are always wrong... does it matter? is being wrong really that big of a deal? what's wrong with being... wrong? That doesn't mean that you can't learn to be right! That doesn't mean that you should hide from society. And that DEFINITELY doesn't mean that you should stop believing in yourself. Because if you don't believe in yourself at least a little bit, it'll be hard to be happy. You can't be overconfident either. What I've mentioned earlier in this paragraph can apply to overconfidence as well as under-confidence. You aren't always right. It's really important to be able to accept that you can be wrong, no matter how much you believe otherwise.

I believe that being tough means that you have confidence in yourself. Not too much confidence (overconfidence) and not too little (under-confidence). If you can lead your life with confidence, I believe that you can truly see the world... and yourself in a better, brighter light...