Easily Injured

Hmmm I don't seem to heal well.

I mean, I got a knee injury, an achilles heel injury, a wrist injury, and a elbow injury... all on my right side. ANNNNNND I got a back injury too! It's been MONTHS since I've gotten all these injuries, so either I'm not doing something right, or my body stinks at healing.... maybe its both ^^". I mean, there have been times when I've felt that some parts of my body have been getting better, and recently, my injured areas have been healing well, but usually, the injuries get worse. The severity of my injuries go up and down ><.

I'd say that I deal with injuries well. Although I react like I've been really hurt... I'm actually fine.. the only reason that I react like that at all is because of some girls I know that have gotten me into a bad habit... I'll go into that later :D. Really, I deal with physical pain well. Hits, cuts, scrapes, and so on. I'm okay with them. But that doesn't mean that I don't wanna avoid them. ^^

Injuries of the heart however, are things that I don't deal with well... but I've gained a better resistance to them since my younger days... as in last year and earlier. I get confused a lot of the time. Like, what did this person mean by this? Or did I say something wrong? what did I do? Should I apologize? Is this person upset with me? And so on. It really kills me when I'm thinking these things to myself. That's why I'm working on building the confidence that will stand strong against these meaningless and insignificant worries I have. So far, so good. :)

But it's not just worries about myself that kill me. I stress out over the pain of others. And while I don't really see this as a bad thing, I wish I had the ability to help solve the problems of others as long as I have this trait, because I'm just making myself suffer.

I want to be able to help the people around me... help solve their problems.. get along better with them... but unfortuneately, I kinda stink at all of this. Ugh, this issue of mine is one of the only things about me that I feel really haven't improved. Oh well, I'm going to improve myself. I have to and I WILL. =)

Haha but yea, I think if anybody seriously insulted me, especially when cursing at the same time,one of two things would happen I would act tough and ask the guy what his problem was or something... orrrrrrr I would cry on the inside, and very unlikely, the outside... but I think that would only happen if a friend did or said something bad to me. Haha yea, cry. I have a pretty weak innerself... at least I did in the past. I really have toughened up over the years.

Haha in fact, I've recently thought that if I could, I would go back in time to last year, and beat some sense into myself, physically AND verbally... as in punching myself in the face and telling me to grow a ___... yea. XD

I've let things get me down way too easily in the past... and now I'm seriously tired (and sick) of it. That's why I've maned up recently. Still got some ways to go though. But I'll get there!!!