English Class Has Been Sooooo Fun Lately

So I had an interesting English class today. Recently, my English teacher had been on the edge, getting angry and frustrated with the class. Oh, and me too.

Haha so last Friday, she called on me to say what magical realism was. I never could retain the definition of realism. Wait, is it just a story with realistic elements...? lol

hmmm dictionary website says basically that, but a bit more smart sounding. ops. ahhh well, never could get that smart sounding part down.

lol ANNNNNNNNNYWAYS, I was drawing a blank, and though there were a few distractions, she ultimately stayed on me. Apparently, it was a preeeeeeeeeety painful spetacle. :P She was like "Come on, just say a sentece with the words "magical" and "realism" in it. I justsat there and smiled a little. ^^" Someone told me later that I looked scared. I was kinda surprised. I didn't think I even HAD a scared face. haha though I can imagen it.... kinda. More like a fake scared face.

Anyways, I was a bit proud of myslef that I was able to have a decent amount of self control in this annoying situation. Usually, my face turns red, I get a bit fidgety, and I can't speak well. This time, I remembered to do a little thing that gives me some confidence: lightly hitting my chest with a loose fist. It's like, well, the action calms me down and arouses some strength. When you get nervous or sad or whatever, you get a bad feeling in your chest right? Same thing goes for good feelings, you have a good feeling in your chest. Heart, Soul, Spirit? Whatever the case, I guess this is kinda a logical reason why this chest hitting thing works for me.

Moving on, the teacher would just NOT let up on me! She focused on me for like, 15 minutes...maybe less in reality, but not by much. She was like, "would you like your classmate to help you out?" I was like: "sure." So the kid answers the question: It's realism that has magical elements. -.-" I could've said something THAT simple... though I might've sounded a bit dumber. I thought she wanted a better answer. Plus, I was kinda disoriented when she called me, since I let my mind wander to pass the time, and hope she doesn't call me. Unfortunetly, that day, the kid in front of me was absent, so I guess the teach had a clear view of me.

After asked my classmate to help me out, she asked me to answer ANOTHER question. Gezz what happened to moving onto the next kid to call on after 10 seconds of non response? I was bsically quiet when she waited for me to answer, starting off on sentences and mumbling and all those signs that you want the teacher to move on to the next kid to call on.

Weeeeeeeeeeell she asked me a question of the book we were reading, and lucky me, I was chosen out of the whole class of non readers to answer her question. I read some of the book, but I was behind. Weeeeeeeeeeeell, after giving her a response, which was wrong, she FINALLY gave up on me and answered the question herself. She then asked another kid a question, but he couldn't answer her.

And so, the teacher went on a rant about how we should be reading like she says and blah blah blah. But I kinda got a vibe from my classmates that said this: We don't care. And when she gets "angry" at us, she doesn't look or even sound angry. No, she just raises her voice and speaks sarcastically for a while. At least it seems like a while. I've found that I've been lacking in patient with angry adults.

Okay, so eventually, I recovered from my time in class, and was able to joke around w/ the situation later.

haha AHHHHHHHHH went on a huge tanget. I didn't even talk about what happened today!!! lol so in the middle of class, my teacher got all riled up again. But this time there wasn't much of a cause. She got angered by the lack of participation in class and the got angrier when I think she recalled what happened in class last friday. Haha apparently, when she said something about not reading the material, she looked at me. My friend told me this, but I didn't notice, cuz I always look down at my notes in that class. Not sure it that actually happened since that friend likes to mess with me a bit, or she ends up messing with me lol.

Sooooooooooooo I think my teacher almost snapped today. Like, she nearly started to yell!!!! haha but I think she caught herself and went back to being all sarcastically mean.

I didn't really mind, but I felt like putting on my stern face. I wasn't really in a bad mood. More like a non-caring one. And it had been a while since I last made my face stern on purpose, so I decided to look stern.

BUT THEN, something happened... which I'll talk about in my next post, cuz this onbe is long enough already haha. ^^