My Mind is Being Mean to Me Lately

So, I think I mentioned in one of my earlier posts that there's a girl I have in mind.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, she's still there... unfortunately. A while ago, I did my best to get her out of my mind and heart. lol did I say that before? Well, I am, because there is no way she likes me like that, I think she likes someone else, and I STILL don't know if she's already with someone. I thought that the best thing to do here would be to just move on.

BUT

My mind won't let me. I was actually making good progress when my mind started hitting me with all these thoughts, ideas, and imagined situations about the girl. Like, my mind would just drift off and think of things about her and then I'd be like, "AUGH!!! Stop it!!! That'll never happen DX." Yeaaaaa it's pretty bad.

The thing that really stopped my progress was one of my friends. She basically and blatantly says that she thinks this girl likes me. And ever since then, my friend's words have been haunting my mind!!! And soon enough, one thing is leading to another and I'm constantly thinking that "msybe she DOES like me" or "could she really like me after all" and etc.

One time, I saw her and after having more troubling thoughts in my head, just thought, "AUGH I should just forget about her!!!" as I drove away in my car. But when I turned on the radio, the song that was playing was a song about love... then I changed the station and it was playing I think "We Should be Together"... -.-" and then when I was like, "okay, there's no way that a THIRD love song is gonna come up"... I change the station and it's playing "Over My Head" by the Fray. And I'm like, "okay, there's no love related things in that title."... But THEN... THE LYRICS BASICALLY POINTED TOWARDS LOVE!!! And I was like ARRRRRRRGH!!!!!

Yeaaaaaaaa seriously, that's totally like a TV moment in real life. It's like in a sitcom when a character is tryig to not think of love and the he/she turns on the TV or radio and a show or song on love comes up. Seriously hahaha what are the chances?!?!

Yeaaaaaaaaaaa so I don't know what to do know. I guess I'll just have to keep trying to get her out of my head. Maybe it's true what they say. Maybe you don't get over someone until you find someone else.

I guess the previous person I liked was different, cuz I ended up liking her because I thought she was someone she wasn't. I was able to get over her pretty fast I think.

But this girl... I actually know her kinda well I think... and so... yea. Having some trouble here. ><" Haha idk. When it comes to having a girlfriend, I've always thought that wouldn't have one until I got into college. And though I think this is most likely, I can't help but be weak against the girls I've liked over the years... which is only two... or one... which is this one... and the first one didn't count lol

Haha a few years ago, I was kinda liking on a few girls, but I don't think I like liked them. Truthfully, I think me having friends who are girls for the first time was just too new to me.

But now is different. I guess I'll just be honest with myself.

I like this girl

She is very interesting and I always have an out of the ordinary time with her... which I like.

She is nice...pretty... and I really wish I could help her out with the numerous problems she's having, but if I tried, I would be overstepping my boundaries as simply a friend. And that wouldn't be good. Might be forcingmyself on her or something?

Ugh. I guess it's just going to take some time to get over this girl. This girl... who I like... and hope who likes me a lot... even if it is just a friend.