My Present Self

I once read something my friend wrote about how much my friend liked her present self. As for me, I like my present self a lot. Though I am really lacking in the work ethic area.

I'm more confident and don't get overwhelmed by even work AS much anymore. I can take a stand and act like I want better now.

I'm still pretty positive. Maybe not as blissfully positive as I was in the past... but I think I'm more positive in a refined, mature way... kinda like that. Ahhhhhhhh in either case, I'm still dumbly positive, but I like that.

I'm finally over all of my major insecurities and my past. FINALLY. Plus, I've toughened up mentally, so I'm not bothered by whatever anymore.

However, due to my physical injuries, I've become a lot weaker and fatter. The pores on my face are still huge and my hair is still annoying (though I got it cut ans straightened, so it's good for now :D). I also feel that I have less patience nowadays. I feel it, but I haven't shown it yet. Also, I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to being on the verge of saying a curse word. Before, my mind would like, condemn curses in my thoughts... but now, that is steadily weakening... not good. But on that note, I've always found that I'm kinda restricted by my lac of saying curses and lewd things. Like, my friends make so many of those kind of jokes and bring up topics where talk like that is necessary, but I'm always silent.

Well, even so, saying lewd things and curses isn't something I really want to do.

Haha I've also become better socially. I'm talking better with more friends, though I could still use some work. Still quiet sometimes, but not AS quiet :D

lol I like how I've finally mentally toughened up the most. I can go through life without being bothered by things as much anymore. It's allowed my to enjoy myself and just be plain okay with myself. =)